This New Year's weekend, I've been thinking a lot about routine. To some routine can have a negative connotation. It can meaning boring and repetitious. However, to me this year I could be just the ticket I need.
With all the huge happenings in my life during 2009, starting with PACT, student teaching, finding a job, graduating, writing and finishing my thesis, moving, getting settled into a new branch, and finally starting a new job I haven't had a whole lot of stability this past year. As a result, by the end of the year I was just feeling overwhelmed and that I couldn't do just about anything right. The truth was I didn't create a whole lot of routine.
As 2009 ended last week I was reminded of a very, small precious truth that I have the power, with the Lord's help, to accomplish anything. It's funny how the Lord can remind you of this in some of the craziest points in your life. First, I was just feeling so crazy about Matt and my relationship. I love him so much and was feeling like I couldn't be absolutely happy unless he married me now. I realized this is not true. Matt has chosen to go on a mission and I am so proud of him for that. Through the help of others and the Lord I have realized that through my diligence and faith I can come to view the time that Matt will be gone as him not only being on his mission, but "our mission." This will be a time for me to grow in so many ways, no matter how long it takes, for me to become the strong woman I know I can be. I have chosen to completely commit myself to being with Matt and will support him in his effort to do as he know he is commanded to do.
Second, I found out my dear "Mormon Mom" Tony Peers was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer. I had the blessing of being able to spend a couple of days with Tony, Steve, and the rest of the family a couple of days after I found out. No matter what I knew it was important for me to see Tony and Steve, but what I didn't realize before I arrived was how much the Lord wanted me to learn from that. The Peers are such strong people with firm testimonies who have always stood for me as as example of what I want to achieve in mortality. I'll never forget when Tony looked at me and said, "Carolyn, isn't amazing that I'm on to my next journey." Even though I feel so much sorrow, I truly do find it amazing also! I want to stand as a witness of this truth and be the same wonderful example to others as Tony is to me.
So what do these things have to do with setting a routine. Maybe not a whole lot on the outside, but I'm learning that I can do anything when I put my mind to it, and that means starting new today. Waking up every morning and saying, "Today is going to be a fantastic day and I can do it," and then getting up doing all of those things I have committed myself to doing. I am capable of achieving anything I put my mind to, and feel more strength to do that than ever before.
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